Nah, what shit things I was said? Cause This is much weird

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When you loving much, you will lose much than anything.

Gue ga tau si Bahasa inggrisnya bener apa nggak. Yang, jelas si, gue cuma mau ngomong semakin kamu mencintai suatu hal semakin mungkin kehilangan lebih.

Itu point yang mau aku bahas saat ini. Karena akhir akhir ini aku merasa semakin menurun kesehatanku dan kehilangan banyak motivasi yang baik tapi malahan semakin timbul motivasi yang menurut orang ga baik si. At least it's good to me. Percaya atau nggak, aku kembali merasa takut ke fase terburuk itu (sejauh aku hidup, fase itu yang paling mengerikan seumur hidupku.).

I write my feeling recently on twitter and it decrease my carving emotion, hopeless, then negativity in my life. Like what I was mentioned, I love much my moots, they give me support, warmth words, made me still alive until now. They give me energy to life. But, when I back then, I feel I'm toxic them with my tweet, complaining anything what was happen on my life. I spread negativity instead of positive energy.

My real life friends would be amazed if they found I life like shitt on the internet. Because some of them think I'm a YOLO person. But, Nah. I'm struggling with my fault that I made.

Then, couple of day, wait, maybe a week a go, I realized that I'm soooooo toxic to my moots, so I decided to tweet about positivity. Like my moots did, she tweets about "Life is a mess, don't fill your head wtih shitt things and toxic. Instead of spread bad rumor or bad mouthing we can spread warm words and give some people more energy to life."

Then, whats the corelation frist paragaph that I wrote with this all things?

Frist, I feel comfy with my moots then I tell them what I feel more and more... then I reallize I love my moots more than anything so when they leave twitter, or bad mouthing about my love my heart goes hurted.

I promise I'll more positive and productive! Thank you my moots, esp Kak Aya, Kak Non, Kak Ubi, and their circle, Joyful, MyDay, JBJ, Day6. I'll life until I meet my moots and my idol (Please, don't think me 'Lebay' or called me 'Alay' Cause they give me life more than you can)

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