Strawberries and Cigarette Fools

Hai, biasanya gue kalau nulis emang gak ada konsep. Males mikirin konsep. Sebenernya pengen si, nulis yang paling enggak membawa manfaat buat yang nyasar ke Blog gajelas punyaku.  Hehe. Pikiranku selalu kemana-mana memikirkan hal aneh di dunia. Ya kali barusan gue mikirin akan aneh gak si kalau cara ketawaku di Blog nulisnya "WKWK" atau pilih "Hehehe" aja?? HA! CUKUPKAN PIKIRAN GAK JELAS INI!!! Oh, iya. Akhir-akhir ini aku lagi ngikutin drama China. Ya, meski baru meteor garden dan beberapa film aja si, nggak banyak. Tadi baru aja aku nonton Film You are The Apple of My Eye. Gue pikir ini film bakan tentang keluarga atau life problems gitu. Ternyata sebuah romansa tentang masa muda. Bahwa menjadi dewasa itu penuh proses, nggak ada yang tahu masa depan bakalan seperti apa. Tapi setidaknya kita punya mimpi. Ah, penulisanku terlalu berlebihan sepertinya. Lebih baik, kalau kalian penasaran sama filmnya tonton aja sendiri dan simpulkan gimana filmnya dari sudut panda...

Blog diaries Hari ini, 2 hari setelah Ospek Universitas. Pas Ospek Uniersitas meski ngebosenin materinya, (nggak semuanya si) tapi seru karena ketemu temen-temen yang asik, bercanda sana sini. Jadi gini rasanya memperbaharui hidup di perasingan. Rasanya menyenangkan. Tapi saat menyenangkan kayak gini cuma pas bareng aja, pas balik ke kamar kost merasa sendirian. Mungkin bisa jadi aku yang belum terbiasa kembai merasakan moment seneng punya temen deket kayak gini lagi setelah 3 tahun sendirian nggak ada yang klop, jadi kaget gitu. Disini aku ketemu anak namanya kita sebut aja Uji. Dia lulusan tahun 2017, yang artinya SBMPTN tahun ini adalah SBMPTN-nya yang kedua kali baginya. Aku kagum sama dia. Bukan karena kegagalan mematahkannya. Tapi kegagalan memberinya pelajaran. We talk a lot. Bahkan aku seneng banget bisa dipertemukan sama Uji. Aku berpikir Tuhan mengirimkan Uji buat ngingetin aku lagi. Tahun 2019 adalah SBMPTN ke-2 bagiku dan terakhir bagi Uji. Dia bilang “Hajar abis-abisa...

Halo? Today, I'll post 2 or more article. Cause I want. Heehhehe so, I've listened soooo many song and playlist on youtube. I am the person who don't like to making palylist song. So, I'll searching what kind of my mood today on youtube and listen the playlist. And then today I found a comment on one of my playlist. I was felt this. And anything s/he describe it was same. This comment is calming. You know there are some days where you feel like you're trying your hardest but it's still not enough for people cause they don't understand how hard it can be, how it feels so hard to just get up in the morning but you try so hard regardless yet they don't understand and you feel like even your hardest can never be good enough and it breaks you,it shatters you mentally,emotionally and even physically. You always wanna get better but you don't know how cause you feel tied,you feel suffocated. You feel angry with the world and you wanna quit,you don'...

Hi? Frist, make your ass comfy, grab a cup of tea and cookies and take a deep breath cause this blog will too long to read. Let's get it! I don't know where to go to tell the story. Hmm~ my english is broke, so please be comfy with this shitt things. HHH. I'll do my best to take this story as well. cause this story is mine, and no one know this blog. this is place there I can to escape. I just need space. maybe I'll start with this shitt. After 3 years I get this fuck depression, I always too scary about anything. even myself. I really wanted to crying. everyday, every night my tears was dropped, thinking how hard this life, how suck people are, how Fuck this city, my family don't know this pain, even I tried to describe, they just thinking there I am take this thing is to much. I dn't know. Maybe people would call me silly girl. I really Dumb AF as a girl. I just tryin to tell people my feelings, my dreams, and everything. But, people don't love me at ...